"If I had asked people what they wanted, they would have said faster horses." Henry FordI’m impatient for many things right now. Life is changing – veering onto another path and I’m anxious and leery to take that corner. The corner where the cubicle life is behind me and I'm free of an employer. But as the time nears I find myself in a different place. My life is about to change and despite years of dreaming and planning I can only guess at how it will unfold.
Summer is almost here. It is the first summer where I will not be under the dictates of a boss and my time will be my own. Quitting a long-term job is scary no matter how long you’ve planned your exit and I’ve planned since day one. That first day when I realized that uniform grey and beige walls, layered procedures and repetitious tasks weren’t for me, I made my decision to exit early. But it seemed through the years, no matter how dedicated I was to the plan, that the time would never come. Yet like all things it did and now it’s almost here – weeks away.
I’m impatient for this waiting period to be over and get on with it. At work I’m in this strange little limbo where I am no longer “them”. I am the one that’s jumped and ran and not for just another job but with plans of never coming back, a traitor of sorts although my friends are all happy for me. Although I'm not sure how this will unfold, maybe like Ford's quote, what I want is really not what I need. But that remains to be seen, I don't think either a life-long passion or personal freedom are elements to be quibbled with - the rest I'm certain will all fall into place.
It’s almost time - and while I can’t fathom the changes, I’m impatient to begin. I feel a bit like I did as a kid waiting for the beginning of summer vacation. Hot summer days that seemed endless with possibility.
What happens when the dream meets reality? I'll let you know. Whether it's a horse or a car, a computer or a pen it will all work out.
Have you dreamed of a horse and ended up with a car? What are you impatient for?
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